Dreaming

Gosh. Lately, i find myself fault.

Here the thing started. As before this, i'm think i sort of less motivated, loss source of motivation, inspiration and so on. So, the results are, i start to find and do a few investment on how to build my self-esteem, superior or find the "other me" such 12 years before. I started to buy motivation books, watching motivation and true-story that could inspired me, read more stuff on how to build and manage the real life. Until now, i'still think that i lack of that so called -

D E T E R M I N A T I O N

Then, when i was riding my motorcycles (as i always think that the best therapy to cure my stress and the best way to get idea or solution)...suddenly something just crossed my mind.

I just think that i just overwhelmed by those books, tips or what ever but i did not PRACTICALLY used it in my daily LIFE. Yup, that sound terrible and retarded. But that the really truth about my habit.

It started to come out as a try to remember the tips that i read from the Life Plan book, on how to avoid stress. Just 10 ways..sadly..i even cannot remembered anyone of them.

Then, i also start to realize that i had too much dreaming about the future, having a career that suit me well, more money, have a serious relationship, own a car,, a house, play a PS3, have a good-shape of body, the masculine one and also get to go to the prestige place like other my friend go. So, i dreaming on how to get that (not specifically) then, the passion just go away as i watch or doing something just in second.

Poor me..or maybe s**k me! i don't know either i has get a dream again or just stop and start to focus with what i just have now.