Same

"The same way I follow, may lead me the same result"

So, by doing the same technique, the same methods which give me the same failure and disappointment, i will  not go anywhere.

I just feeling down. Sorry if you feel terrible by reading this journals, which almost give a story about my disappointed life. Sorry. But this is only the ways i could express my feeling, my disappointment, then after that i feel a bit o.k and get on with my pathetic life.

Today, the same things happened. cannot tell anyone even the trusted one, wanna handle this problem by myself as i thing that would be the adult should do.Seriously, i fell awkward to ask some guide or solution from the friends of mine even the marries mine. Oh, that totally a disaster. They maybe have their own problems to and the last thing friend ask me is " Why?do you have a problem AGAIN?" 

Nah. So even a friend of mine will think that what way that i gonna find her if i have a very deep problems. 

Then, i decided not to seek her her or anyone help. My sibling? not even a less. At least until now.  

So, what i'm gonna do now? 

just take an action? Maybe?